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am·biv·a·lent

/æmˈbɪvələnt/ Show Spelled [am-biv-uh-luhnt] Show IPA

adjective

1. having ”mixed feelings about someone or something; being unable to choose between two (usually opposing) courses of action.

2. Psychology . of or pertaining to the coexistence within an individual of positive and negative feelings toward the same person, object, or action, simultaneously drawing him or her in opposite directions.